Sometimes Letting Go of the Light is Hard

The sun was at my back and my shadow was long. It was early in the evening, and the sun was on it’s way down. The changing of the seasons is in the air.

There was nothing particularly exciting about my stroll other then noticing the few brilliant colors painted on some tree leaves, and the balmy mid-70 degree temperatures in the month of October. I had Jim Brickman playing in my ears (I NEVER have Jim Brickman playing on a walk) and many thoughts going on in my head.

Going for walks always allows me time to reflect, even though I don’t often take advantage of the time to do that.  As many of you know, I wrote frequently about the struggles I had last winter with some health issues. The mass doses of Vitamin D that my doctor had me take initially and  discovering all over again the value of sunshine helped me on my way to healing and understanding the importance of ones thyroid and the outcome of Vitamin D deficiencies!

Last winter there was a heaviness that met me every day and it was all I could do to climb out of it, into the light of spring.

Quite frankly it is with great reluctance that I let go of these beautiful fall days that engulf us in warmth and the cheerfulness that  bright light can bring.  Perhaps I’m living off the memories of a very discouraging winter last year but I don’t want THIS to end.  My problem is I don’t always know how to make peace with the physical, environmental, and psychological coldness that winter blahness brings -  especially as I’m getting older!

But, the optimistic side of me feels that if the good Lord made me, and He create the seasons, that the two things can function together and somehow (with His help) I’ll muddle through this, because there’s a bunch of us that will be in this together - right?

So I think I will choose to embrace these remaining summer-like fall days whenever they happen, continue to take my vitamin D, and perhaps buy a light box to off set any grumpy, depressing feelings that a new winter season can bring.

I will leave you with this Irish blessing:

May God grant you always…a sunbeam to warm you, a moonbeam to charm you, a sheltering Angel so nothing can harm you. Laughter to cheer you. Faithful friends near you. And whenever you pray, Heaven to hear you.

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